breaking

I haven't seen you

since.

I tried to call you

but you didn't pick up.

not that I thought

you would.

I don't know if I

still love you.

I don't know if I ever

loved you

for you.

maybe not.

maybe I loved the

idea of you.

maybe we both did.

maybe we both loved the idea

of this.

whatever this was.

but it was enough.

I was

happy.

at least

I convinced myself

I was.

now I have to

start all over.