RNR (Relapse and Recovery)

I took three pills this morning, rolled Icy Hot onto my wrists (works better than the rubber bands used to), downed a cup of coffee (the first of what will probably be six before the day is over), and actually ate breakfast (it's been staying down lately).

I haven't dissociated all day long. I haven't thrown up all day long. I haven't wanted to cut all day long. I haven't wanted to die all day long. I haven't had a panic attack all day long.

It's just day one of my fresh start. But it's a good start. It's the little victories that mean the most.