very merry

i still see december

in orange slumber skies

and twinkling lights, and

i still admire her

in winter's crown

through child eyes, but

i don't celebrate christmas

anymore

because

its merriment defies

how things grew cold

and family gathering

reminds me

of how mine fell apart

but i still see december

in willowy dreams

and glacial breaths, and

i still admire

how she forgives me

with a new year.

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