You Are My Death

I love you

I hate you

I need you

I want you

I crave you

I doubt you

I beg you

I hold you

You love me

You hate me

You resent me

You stunt me

You build me

You break me

You hold me

You shake me

I try to hold on, I try not to change,

You think growth is distance,

That it's something strange.

In your firm grip,

This thing you call trust,

I try not to breathe,

But grow, we all must.

Underwater, I hold my breath,

My body relinquished,

Collapsed, nothing left.

Through ripples I see you,

Look you in the eye,

Beginning or end,

We grow or we die.