Boldy

God, I can't even write poetically about her. She's a poem herself. But not a haiku or anything symbolistic, what she'd probably call 'froofy'. Like... A poem that's unfiltered. It came straight from the heart.

She's gorgeous. Just... I went to homecoming with her last night, and my god. She had this dress that was just... Wow. And her hair was gold and perfect and her eyes looked so happy. She didn't like her heels so she couldn't dance much but I didn't mind-- I was just as happy to sit and listen to her talk endlessly about whatever book she's reading for class or that weird lunch they served last week.

Everything she does is beautiful to me. They way she stumbles and wobbles when she tries on my too-small shoes. The way her eyes close when she laughs at something that wasn't that funny, but she's too sweet to tell them. The way her fingers kind of brush against mine, but so lightly that maybe she didn't? And we never mention it because it's trivial but I'm sure they did. And the smug look on her face when I got all flustered and shy is more than enough evidence.

And I remember that one moment I fell in love-- it was so weird. I left my phone in my history class but the next class had already started, so I was too shy to go in and look for it. She grabbed me by the hand and shoved me in and announced loudly that 'this idiot lost her phone in here'. I was terrified at first, but the way the class laughed wasn't at me, it was a happy laugh. And she completed me. I was shy and she was bold and she helped me. I'm nervous and anxious and submissive, I don't like walking through crowded hallways because oh god are they laughing at me?! But she's an actor. A goddess, to me. She can just... Transform on stage. She's not afraid of anything. She's fearless and bold and beautiful and god damnit I love her.

It's gonna be hard. It's my first relationship, well... Ever. But it's not gonna be a highschool fling or a phase or an awkward memory. Because I love her and I want to make this work.

There I go, rambling about the girl I love. I was having doubts but as soon as I wrote this out, I realized it's entirely true. I love her and I'll never not.

I love you.

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