i was betrayed by someone i loved.

I was not ok this year.

My mind was in a horrendous place, and I was having horrendous thoughts.

And when I wasn’t ok, you were the one person I thought would notice.

I thought we had that. I trusted you that we had that. I trusted YOU. too much.

And we obviously didnt.

And looking back on how much I loved and admired you, I feel humiliated because none of it was real.

and that fucking hurts.