Love is Blindness.

I started going to the church youth group because my mum wanted me to have friends. I guess she thought the best place to find wholesome, safe friends was at church. The people I met there were certainly not holy. A clique of bitchy, slutty girls (myself included) and horny boys who smoked weed and would do anything to see female body parts. I didn't have very high self esteem so it was easy to wear shorts and let boys touch me in places no 14 year old should let people touch them.

I was in and out of indoctrination and a flippant disregard for "God". Sometimes I was going to be with the Lord and sometimes it was just for my friends. It was hard for me to engage completely with what the leaders were saying because an opinion that wasn't taken straight from the bible was shunned. I once tried to talk about my ideas about the afterlife, I had this idea that souls are recycled into different bodies when you die. The leader literally laughed, out loud, in my face and told me I was stupid. That was when I knew what religion was about.

Religion is about blindly following the words of someone else. It is the sense of comfort in not having to make your own decisions about life. The bible tells you what you can and can't do, how you should feel about things and that you'll be safe when you die if you just follow this "life manual". I guess it makes people comfortable. It just makes my skin crawl.