2.2.18
all of the ways i have taught my body to fall asleep with no longer work
because now i know the difference between my arms around a pillow and my arms around you.
there's no replacement or substitute for the warmth of your arms around me, holding me into your chest,
where i feel safe.
primal instincts will tell you that no matter the species, it is much easier to fall asleep in safety than in chaos.
restlessness and i have always had an ongoing battle. lately, it's winning and i have the dark circles to prove it. battle scars.
i know i can fight the restlessness off on my own. most nights i can get away with battling for no more than an hour before it retreats and prepares for the next night.
but with your breath on my neck and an arm across my waist, i swear it only takes a few seconds to fight it off.
i can take the challenge of a one on one, and some battles are more difficult than others.
but the battles i battle with you...
you make anything conquerable.