Small

I let myself shrink

as small as can be.

Because there is no chance

I could ever grow

as big as my dreams

so why should I try.

I let myself collapse

inward upon myself.

Because if i were to get too big

i would feel even smaller,

buried inside my mind.

I let myself fall

tumble deeper down

into my own pain.

Because if I get knocked down

every time I stand,

why rise at all

when I could instead

let myself fall.