Early Development

Although viewing young children as sexually charged young beings is for most people uncomfortable, unnatural, and an utter nightmare one only finds in Aldous Huxley novels, early sexual development among children is not entirely uncommon.

When I was about six years old, I deciphered on my own the act of sex. Despite my small error in mistaking semen for urine, I was very aware of both the functions of the male and female body, and once I had this revelation, I became nothing but curious. I vividly remember playing "Truth or Dare" with the seven year-old boy who lived next door, and while most children dare one another to eat worms or climb to the very top of the monkey-bars, we jumped straight to the Rated-R version of the childish game and, by the end, were poking each other in the nipples, giggling.

I had my first orgasm at the age of seven. Of course I didn't understand what had happened to my body, but I certainly knew it was abnormal and wonderful; however, since I could see the abnormality of my actions, I felt embarrassed and guilty, and contained my sensual experiences to the solitude of my bedroom after-hours. This concept of privacy, like sex, seems to be just as natural.

Since I had been pleasuring myself from a young age without knowing it, the actual act of sex, itself, proved to be disappointing for the first couple of years, and it wasn't until two years after I had lost my virginity that I discovered I had been having orgasms all along.

I am not at all ashamed of my close relationship with my sexuality, yet I do not express the full extent of my experiences because I am aware of the odd nature of my early development.