Who I Appear To Be
I am a confident women, a professional that is on my way to the top, a caring wife, and a loving mother. This is what I want you to see, no wait, what I need you to see. The truth is, I am a shell of an ambitious person that has been put down and is now numb and full of a plague of anxieties. I overthink the simplest of comments and remarks made to me and, when you think I’m not listening, behind my back. I often feel like I don’t fit in with anyone, and even when I try I’m left out. So, I’ll put my professional face on once more and make the people around me, those who don’t know me, think - wow why can’t I be like her, she has her life together, her family is what an American family should be, and she is so happy. Meanwhile, I’ll be once again trying to climb up from the depths of my own personal hell day after day.