Self-Reflection

What is my purpose? A question many have asked themselves. Yet very few have found the true answer. On the other hand there are people like me who just go on with their lives, letting the days drift away immersed in their own solitude. I'm a person who always hid behind the label of a "loner" believing that I preferred my own company. Pleased to have all that time to myself never letting anyone in, but relishing in my peaceful silence. Choosing to remain inside and standing on the sidelines rather than going out and enjoying myself. Just because my isolation was much more safer than exposing my real self to the world.

Binging on the net and spending hours on social media was so much easier than just talking to the person sitting beside me. Running after my own selfish desires was less burdening than to trust someone else with my little secrets. Always afraid they might jugde me. Asking others opinion was not as tough as making my own decisions. Thus I remained blinded through my college years even into university.

Now that I am on the verge of a new phase in my life, my eyes have finally opened and I've starting questioning all those wrong convictions. Wondering not about the what ifs but about how I might rectify my mistakes to build a new confident and enlightened person. This is my first step towards that goal by accepting my faults. At the same time taking small steps towards a new and better life.