In Your Absence

When you were here, everything was right.

I didn't have to chase you, didn't have to fight.

The days passed, each one faster than the last.

The time we spent was never wasted, but never fully spent.

At least, not for you, I don't think.

That winter day you left me there, with no one's hand to hold,

No more of the summer leaves, no more burning gold.

You left me with a cold embrace, one that reeked of ending.

Once I was alone I thought, the days and nights the same,

That maybe in your absence, I could breathe again.

The breathing hurt, at first, it did.

For came with the breathing, a growing sense of dread.

Maybe I was alone forever, with no one's hand to hold,

Stuck in your absence, the never ending hole.

That was the day I saw you again, and I knew no matter what,

That I would always love you, no matter what.

So I tried to be your friend again, but that just wouldn't work.

I craved you like a drug, you see.

But not you to me.

That's the day I realized, no matter how I cried,

That you were loving someone else,

Someone I could not be, no matter how I tried.

Today is the day I let you go, and wish you all the best.

And as for me, I won't be, never again, living in your absence.