Reflections of Red
my scars are beautiful
they are scabs that i have picked on
again and again because i have dared enough
to know who i am and who i am
is the biggest scar i have
i bleed to know
how i feel
they have bled until the
surrounding veins the surrounding
capillaries have restricted and healed underneath
my skin and my skin has greatly formed into
markings and my markings
have become reminders
of a world too big
to understand
i have scars from hunger
scars from living a life as a young
arriviste and conniving my way to becoming
self-satisfied happy and radiant in the
glory of my pain till my bones have
cracked and my frame was forged
into steel but I have smiled in the
face of transformation
my scars are beautiful
and they make me smile at craters
and slits that have gathered dirt i have shaken
off letting infections to manifest into bulbous abscesses
i have looked at myself in the mirror
and I have seen myself slowly
disfiguring into someone
i didn't recognize
but you wouldn't know because
all you would see are smiles my wide-toothed
grin reminding you that anger becomes selfishness becomes an act
of arrogant self-indulgence and as my skin wrinkles
from the insides trying to fall out onto the
floor as my face contorts into tears
from scars that take lifetimes
to heal i remember my
scars are beautiful
because i have dared to know who i am
no lesion no wound no scab can change that
and as i scream at the rupturings of my being
you will hear how i carry the world in tune
in melodies akin to instrumental silence