bullied as a kid ™
among the countless thugs
that teased and taunted myself as a boy
who exhibited blatant characteristics
of being painfully shy and coy
attempting to remain like a statue as a decoy
which tactic nada successful employ
but only incensed and beckoned
like tasty morsel chronic unpleasant bait
to be pitted with words
always feeling like an outcast
(of poker flats) without a date
populating school memories
of loathsomeness and hate
serving as token punching bag
nearly the duration every year
of public school, which vicious name calling
assaults upon me psyche did wear
away negligible self confidence,
or internal rage that found instinct to veer
away from approaching fist,
which knuckle sandwich from tier
of hooligans gave no surcease
to knock this then introvert
on his head or scrawny rear
a lonely lad bereft of any buddy
to stand close as bona a fide genuine peer,
nothing but dark shadow
casting silhouette
per edge of night always near
one brazen dude named Lloyd Lavinsky
hovered ever near
especially during recess
at Audubon Elementary School
he did chase and lear
encouraging mob fiends
to join in an additionally mock and jeer
which unprintable epithets,
I can still faintly hear
in tandem with that native animal fear
that found this then
socially withdrawn second grader a targeted deer
caught in cross hairs of boys
who seemed like giants
and fierce some as a bear
clawing at a scared little boy
plus hurtful words thru the air
which cruel barbs hurled lent convenience
for me who stood stock still or crouched down
on ground intimating passivity
and inferiority brought grimace and frown
to those who mimicked flaws,
aside from being shriveled flower on lawn
included nasal twang
from submucous cleft palate
defect that did spawn
speech impediment and obvious magnet
for brutal beast
to relish, savor and feast
hoping to bring me to tears at the least
knowing this human docile scared dog
would not fight back
fearing he might get beat
to a bloody pulp for justifiably flack
even my late mother also told me
to give brats a “what for”
with two fisted pack
that triceratops nasty gang
bulging biceps they did pack
who to this very day I bristle to smack
with an ole mighty whack
as if strength within transferred
to computer Goliath body guard
manufactured by Sperry Univac.
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postscript:
although just a infinitesimal dot
moxie this mortal doth got
in the cosmic skein since big bang hot
test event since white bread -
gives m t calories a lot
soak up syrup from chicken soup
from sterling gold chamber pot
strongly suggested by a tweeting scott.