The Worst Feeling
you aren't gone yet,
but you're going away.
and when you leave, you'll leave a trail of stars
dotting the galaxy,
screaming "I was here"
in case I ever forget you.
I'll follow your stars,
but they'll lead me back to where we're standing now.
your voice will drift in from the heavens, your
it's alright it's alright again and again
like some eternal answering machine.
that's the worst feeling.
at first it'll burn my tongue
and then its fire will travel down my throat,
and I'll wonder how it once felt to breathe
and know that you were breathing also.
then, you will feel galaxies away
and the fire inside of me will become coal in my stomach
and settle there.
the truth will feel like a thousand dead stars
that still burn in the sky because I am light years away
and from here you still burn brightly
because
you are still alive.
but you tell me you are going
and that you've packed up your bags
so I guess the worst feeling is that
sometimes it's as if you've really left
and if I stare at you too hard you disappear.
you aren't gone yet,
and thank god for that.
you've got one foot in the next life
and I'm holding onto the part of you that's still here,
that's still holding on,
that doesn't really want to let go.
so
it doesn't hurt as much
now.