Not Afraid of the Dark

I’m not afraid of the dark

But of the night

I have a different mindset

Sometimes I say my greatest fear is darkness

It isn’t quite true

I am afraid of the time that is naturally dark

Not the dark itself

I am fine in movie theatres

Rooms with no windows

As long as it’s daytime

At night, I get this sinking feeling in my stomach

It just won’t go away

My bad thoughts won’t go away

Death

Deadlines

Hatred

This is why I roll around a lot when I’m falling asleep

I’m trying to find a position

That offers release

I have trouble falling asleep

This is why

This is why I go to school every day exhausted

This is why I like to talk to people at night

It only happens when I’m alone

I can’t think happy thoughts

I’m drowning

Please, just let me sleep

Let me forget

I just need to make it until morning

It will all go away in the morning