Why Can’t I Sleep Right Now?

How can I sleep when I know there's someone out there with who I'd like to be?

But do I even want to be with him?

Maybe, secretly, I'm unhappy with who I'm currently with

Maybe I'm unhappy with myself right now

And the only way I know of to change is to change partners.

The only way I know to get better is to take no prisoners.

It's a shame(I'm not saying so blithely)

The last thing I wanted was to hurt anyone

But somewhere I'm not fully or even hardly aware of there's still a little girl I once was seething with rage silently splintering and swearing she'll make them all pay. Pay no attention to the man behind the curtain. I'm nearly certain I'm not the one in control.