desires

I find fault

in the simple wishes of mine

silly and spoiled they may appear

and so I punish the thought

and stab guilt deep

into my bones.

And yet

I don’t need this pain

It serves no one but pain itself

And it won’t stop the fact

That these carnal desires

Are the only truths in the world

My desire to run and hide

to shield myself

from hurtful eyes.

To say what I mean

and mean what I say

never distorting

the absolute image

that is me.

To be myself

the only thing I have

that can bend to my will.

The truth

is that I am alive

and my desires are all

I really need to know.