It just makes me sad

I go to church to rejuvenate the old feelings I use to get

To reconnect with those that I no longer really see

And to try and make my past life fit in with now

Instead I don't feel God

Instead the people I use to know are like strangers

Instead I feel like somebody sliced my life into different parts that can't be stitched together again

And it just makes me sad.

I visit school to feel the youth I once had

To catch up with familiar faces

And to pretend I somehow still live in this past world

Instead I feel old

Instead people are slowly forgetting me

Instead I know this world doesn't have room for me anymore

And it just makes me sad.

I didn't do the things I love

I got too scared

And I try to make up for it by watching others live their dreams

Instead i feel envy

Instead I place my face over theirs

Instead I feel regret

and it just makes me sad.

I message an old friend hoping time will somehow warp itself and we can relive our memories

Instead it's a quick conversation

Instead the truth is we are two completely different people than we use to be

Instead I'm just left feeling abandoned by time.....

Damn.

it just makes me sad.