Obsession

Obsession - my least favorite word

I know we agreed to never fall in love with each other

And to never establish a relationship

I know we agreed to just hang out as friends

With some intimate benefits

But every time I think about you,

I can’t help but smile

But, not just any smile. The smile you smile when you first realize that you’re in love.

Am I in love or just excited to see you again?

I’m in love with our late night talks and FaceTime calls.

I’m in love with your seductive looks

And the way you tease me about my lip-biting habit.

You always say I bite & lick my lips because I love you...

Do I?

Every time we meet up

And make out in your truck,

we numb each other to cover our fear of loneliness

Is it just that numbing feeling I desire... or is it you?

Am I just desperate? Lustful? ... Lonely?

.... Or obsessed?