Notice

You didn’t notice

When it all started going downhill

You didn’t see

When the light faded from my eyes

When I lost all the life I once had

I think it’s because it happened so slowly

Every day would just

Get harder

And harder

And harder

But the progress was too slow

To keep track of

To really take note of

I didn’t see it myself for a while

But it finally hit me

These thoughts you’re having aren’t normal

You weren’t like this a few months ago

Are you okay?

I started asking myself the questions I needed to hear

I became more honest with myself

But you never realized that anything was different

How could you not see it?

How could someone I saw every day

Someone who knew me

Or, at least, that I thought knew me

Not see all that was happening?

Maybe I was wrong

Maybe you just saw me as a pretty face

I knew you

Every part

I listened when you talked to me

I asked questions to find out more about you

But now that I’m thinking back,

You never did the same for me

So maybe I shouldn’t be blaming you

For not noticing how bad my condition became

Maybe I should be blaming you

For telling me you loved me

But not really knowing me at all