Trust
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I sit on my tree and stare at the sky, its rich blues flowing in my veins. I close my eyes and inhale deeply the sun, it’s warmth caressing my skin. I shift my head to the side and let the wind tickle my neck. A gentle touch, almost velvety and so pure. My long dark hair flows in all the directions, dancing on my cheekbones and playing against my lips.
I smile.
The world is still a wonder to me. Even after all the millenniums. After all this time.
I look up and stare at the sun, sipping through the moving leaves. My smile widens
as I hear the waves crashing against the rocks. I hear everything. All of the mankind, in one single breath and one single sigh. I close my eyes, feeling the subtle trembles of this world. The earth shaking under the tree. I think of the sharp rocks, surrounding this tree and the cliffs underneath it. I lean forward, my hands grabbing the old branches. My eyelids flutter and I let myself see my surroundings just like humans do.
It’s actually refreshing.
So mundane and wonderful.
As I lean forward I can see him. He’s here again. Every day, at the same time. One hour just for him in peace and quiet. Just him, the sea and the sound of nature. I watch as he takes his walk and as always I am mesmerized by his simple routine. I smile as he picks a long stick and draws pictures on the sand. Fine lines and smooth thoughts. I love the serenity that fills him and vibrates, not only from his gentle heart but also a very gentle mind. It’s unspoiled and honest. I like that. It fills me with hope for the world.
I let go of the branches and let myself fall from the tree. Landing on my tiptoes, lighter than a feather. I take slow steps, nearing the edge of the cliffs, my simple, white summer dress, flowing gently in the increasing wind. My bare feet touching the sharp rocks. I inhale again and make a decision. It’s time. I step over the edge and fall with joy, my wings spreading as I sore through the air. It’s still magical to me, the feel of the wind gusting through every single feather... I peak down like the bird nearby and laugh out loud. Oh, the joy. I land on the sand and my wings disappear, my hair falling into place. I take a couple of steps and join him, sitting down on the beach next to him.
Hello there, stranger. Having your walk?
He turns his head and smiles at me.
Yes, it relaxes me. Thank you for visiting me again. Your company means a lot to me.
It’s my pleasure. Is there something you want to tell me?
I had a dream today and I finally remembered it.
Then by all means, please share - I give him a reassuring smile and he nods.
I dreamed about closeness. The emotional one. The kind that you only get, when you feel safe with someone. When you trust that other person with your whole heart.
And is that important to you? - I ask gently, already knowing the answer but wanting to hear the sound of his voice when he realizes it for himself.
Yes. I need that sense of complete trust, that opens all doors and makes the walls disappear. I don’t know if that’s realistic or not... or if it even sounds intense to you.
It does, continue.
Alright... and it is a very intense thing to me. I didn’t experience anything like this before. I still don’t know if that’s a realistic thing to want, but I think there might be a chance. Do you think that that’s possible?
No. I know that it is. And now, it is also possible for you. It always was.
But how can you be sure? - He asks calmly. Staring at me with those beautiful eyes that reminds me of the sky than I have fallen from.
Because I already lived through all the time that exists. I have seen and felt everything... yet I never get bored with it. The world is a beautiful place and your heart will eventually open to its full potential.
I take his hand and squeeze it gently. He smiles at me, finally hopeful. I let my wings open and fall on the sand. Wrapping us in warmth and shielding his body from the cold wind.
He touches the delicate feathers and looks at them with pure joy. He isn’t even surprised, just takes everything that I give him. His eyes wander to mine and he nods again.
I knew there was something about you. I just didn’t know what it was. Thank you for talking to me. It really helped. And whatever happens now, I know I will make it. With you or without you in my life. Because you made me realize, that there is more to me. That I can open up to people. That I can see through my walls.
I stand up, hide my wings and help him get up, by taking his hand.
So how about that walk, stranger?
It would be my pleasure...
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Written for a friend who dreams of things that in the end, we all want.
and a song that followed me through