Holding On

I have a problem

One I hate to share

I can’t stop loving you

Even though I know

We will never happen

Even though I know

You will never love me

You keep leaving

You don’t even know

How much it hurts

I know you’re older

I know you wouldn’t

Think of me like that

And even if you did,

We both know better

Than to try

We both care

What other people think

And we

Are not something

Anyone could ever

Approve of

But still,

You’re always on my mind

When you walk in the room,

My day gets better

Immediately

I wonder why

You take breaks

From me

So often

Are you fighting

The same feelings

As I?

Are you pretending

To not care about me?

I feel like

I was born at the wrong time

You’re tearing my life apart

And if I were just a bit older

Or you a bit younger,

It all could have worked

But no,

I am cursed

To love you forever

But never be able to have you

I know I should say goodbye

But I can’t

I hate goodbyes

And you have become

Such a huge part of my life

So I’m going to hold on

Until life tears us apart

I will hold on

Even when it’s hard

Because I love you

Even though

We can never be