Sometimes...
Sometimes I think I’ve lived too long
Taken up too much time on this planet
Covered too much space
That’s just how life is
Sometimes I think I’ve changed too many people
Made them to be exactly who I need
It doesn’t matter that they aren’t who they were
We have more in common now
That’s just how life is
Sometimes I think the world would be better without me
The arguments caused by me wouldn’t exist
Everyone could live in peace
As they did before I came
And ruined everything
That’s just how life is
Sometimes I think I’m too hard on myself
But then I remember how much is my fault
I remember all the lies I’ve told
And all the grudges I just can’t let go
That’s just how life is
Sometimes I think I should be less controlling
I like to know exact details about everything
I like to make sure everything is going according to plan
That can get in the way of things sometimes
I need to trust others to do the right thing more often
That’s just how life is
Sometimes I think I need to do something about my procrastination
But I don’t know how
It keeps me from writing and doing school work
I know it’s an inconvenience
But I don’t know how to stop it
I don’t know how to force myself to do what I need to
That’s just how life is
Sometimes I think I’m a complete mess
Because of all the reasons listed above and more
I don’t know how to change myself
I don’t know if I’m really fine
And the only reason I think otherwise is that I’m unconfident
That’s just how life is
Sometimes I wish I could just disappear
I wish I could stay in one place for the rest of my life
And never have to worry about anything
And never have to do anything else
But that’s just not how life works
Sometimes, I just wish things were different
But I have to live with what I have
I have to be happy with what I have
Because it’s all I will ever have
Unless I make a change
And I can’t see myself doing anything drastic
It’s just how life works