Broken
It’s hard to think of how it used to be
When we would run through open fields
With our arms outstretched
Never caring where we were going
Or who was watching
We just liked to feel the wind
Gliding through our hair
It’s hard to think of when it all changed
We grew up
We made mistakes
We figured out life isn’t always perfect
We started doing all we could
To keep from being judged
We just wanted to fit in
And the only way to fit in
Is to be exactly who they want you to be
But our memories never left our minds
We still longed for those summer days
With no purpose
Now, we spend our days
Searching for purpose
It didn’t matter then
We could be happy without reason
We could be us without reason
It’s hard to realize that back then,
I knew exactly who I was
And now, I can’t seem to figure it out
It seems I had a better grasp on life
When I knew less
But the more I learn,
The more broken I become
The more confused I become
I still don’t have purpose
I still don’t know where I’m running to
But I find no joy in not having the answers
I wish I still didn’t care
I wish life was still all I needed
The older I get, the more questions I have
And none of them are being answered
None of my problems are going away
How do I put myself back together?
How do I get back to that empty field?
All I want
Is for my broken pieces to be put back together
But it seems like that’s too much to ask
It’s hard to be broken
When you remember so vividly
A time when you were whole