Gracefully

Sometimes the sadness I'm trying to escape

Catches up, trips me up; leaves me without my cape

Tricks me from all the things that make me great

My addictions are abusive wordplay

To make me think I'm less than the crown I should take

Not a king or human being, a dying star; maybe before I break

I'll find my way, graze the sky than fall gracefully

I've been struggling faithfully

Waiting patiently for my demons to fall asleep

So I can creep out of these sheets and do some good

Lift my foot; let it go or hit the brakes and take it slow

Repeat till I'm far from home, looking back I never belonged

Only as tough as my weakest moments, wish I was strong

Some would agree others say I am wrong; could carry the world?

Barely carry blood in my veins much less the strain love incurs

I'm always sicker than the cure, bathe myself in whiskey and let it burn

Can money really buy what I can't afford?

Or will I always be a few dollars short of something more

Inches or miles from paradise's shore

Either way the tide carries me far from her

Harder on me than you could ever be

Blame myself for the devils burning

I've been returning from lessons learned

Thumbing through pages I never thought I'd turn

Thankful that I got the chance, hate the dance was fast

Reaching for straws coming up with shorter grasp

Time's sand slipping through my hands like ninja acrobats

Always felt more like an alien in the midst of an awkward crash

Skid into death, engine spitting flames; lungs full of ash

It was a bash, did me in till I was flat on my ass

I was an eighties baby, nineties crazy, it caught up fast

Now I'm only as good as the last time I didn't lash out

Shouting obscenities, bleeding from wounds I gashed out

Planned out my next move in solitaire God is playing chess

And check mate is coming up quick so now my best bet

Flip the board, ride the storm, I'm pretty use to it

They should name hurricanes for the way I act

Jump the tracks to prove my train has a chance

Watch these bridges burn like a pyromaniac

Ace up sleeve; mine is red the deck is black

I was never good at keeping up a bluff

If love took my hand I'd cheat myself from it's embrace

Sometimes the sadness I'm trying to escape

Catches up, trips me up; leaves me without my cape

Tricks me from all the things that make me great

My addictions are abusive wordplay

To make me think I'm less than the crown I should take

Not a king or human being, a dying star; maybe before I break

I'll find my way, graze the sky than fall gracefully

I know the way traced it out painfully

Back roads are my back hand, knuckles bumblebees

Beat myself up I feel every sting

Even wear School of Hard knocks graduation ring

As I swing, I would bleed every drop if I thought it would change

I'm to blame, I'm insane, gotta get high to fly this plane

Tend to swerve when I should remain straight

Wake and bake for my mistakes, pray God forgives me for being away

Wish life was a sitcom, drama always followed by the answer

Maybe if I was a better dancer or my drummer more a slasher

Does anyone really have it together?

Followed the letters did the math still came up short when it mattered

Now it's fuck the jump if I always splatter

Rearrange my matter, chatter my DNA into a stronger disaster

Sometimes the sadness I'm trying to escape

Catches up, trips me up; leaves me without my cape

Tricks me from all the things that make me great

My addictions are abusive wordplay

To make me think I'm less than the crown I should take

Not a king or human being, a dying star; maybe before I break

I'll find my way, graze the sky than fall gracefully