Excerpt From My Life Pt 2

All I can hear is my heartbeat, pounding in my ears, as I walk up the stairs. Up the stairs and to my mothers room. I am the one who has to wake her up today. You never know what you're going to get when you wake her up, the kind loving mother or, well, the complete opposite. It's always a surpriseu. I hate surprises.

I get to her room and take a deep breath, slowly cracking the door and peeking inside. It's never something you get used to, just like gambling, you never get used to the shock when you win or grief when you lose.

I walk over to her bed and lightly tap her shoulder and whisper.

"Mom, it's time to wake up." She grumbles and slowly opens her eyes letting them adjust to my figure in her dark room. My nerves go up and goosebumps pop up all over my body.

A smile spreads across her face and I silently am relieved.

"Come cuddle and then we can make pancakes." She says pulling me down and against her. I love her, I do. Any fear of her I had a minute ago washes away, I won't be degraded yet today.