don’t love me, please.

I won’t find love,

You know why?

Because I’ll never open to someone about my life,

Yeah I have crushes and like guys,

But that doesn’t mean I want to give it a try,

I’m a broken human being,

I’ve been thrown down a bridge,

I’ve been shot with many guns,

But I’m still standing here,

The demons I carry,

I won’t want to destroy someone else,

Because people deserve to be happy,

But I know I’m not one of them,

My flaws are many,

My hatred is high,

I can’t stare at myself in the mirror,

Without looking away in disgust,

The scars cover my back,

The scars cover my shoulders,

It may overtake my entire body,

But I’m trying not to be broken,

I’m not talking about cuts,

Neither am talking about punishment,

I’m talking about acne,

And I have a lot of it.

There’s the fatness I sometimes see,

But I don’t pay attention to it,

At least I am not skinny,

Neither am I overweight,

I just wished I was healthy

And no guy wants a cow as his girl,

I push whatever opportunity I have away,

I’ll try to do this until the day I die,

Because I sometimes think about being with someone,

But nothing comes to mind,

I’ve pictured being with some of my crushes,

But I just think to much,

I destroy the thought,

As I know they’ll leave me behind,

Is there someone out there for me?

Please don’t let him fall for me,

He deserves so much more,

While let me get so much little love,

He deserved to be happy with someone with a heart to give,

But not a darkness I don’t want to taint him in,

He deserves to love someone better,

Someone that won’t waste his time on someone so broken,

Because I know he’ll be happier with someone much more lighter,

Let him or her have a beautiful family,

Let him experience love with someone worth loving,

Let him or her have a beautiful life,

Because I know that if he’s with me he won’t survive.