sleep

disconnect

and a body distant

those who i care for so much

nothing in a distance of dust and fog

minds absent

does my body have a soul?

am i just nothing?

is something wrong with me?

why do i feel this way?

i can’t feel today

the joy of friends and fun

a distant memory in the present

so close yet so far from reach

a flashback of life...

i guess i could describe it like that?

a feeling of being dead

a feeling of nothing

no feeling

just absence

and sadness

a dark looming cloud over life

following every step

i wonder

will i ever be free?

why do i feel this way

cold

and bitter

thoughts overbearing reality

i want to go back to sleep.

i want to wake from this constant dream

or perhaps nightmare?

am i even here

do i even feel

do i even exist

i miss life

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(forgive for dodgy write - it’s like 2am lol~~i was in a weird mood and felt like writing and uploading some stuff ://)