Anxious Circles

Madness is the feeling of not knowing,

never knowing.

Like you want this to be true

but the world is against you

and everything you thought you knew

is strewn on the ground.

Why did things have to go this direction?

Why did life have a plan to lead this crooked road?

Most of all,

why can’t I go back and change it?

Anxious circles draw in your mind,

mind, mind you, not brain,

because it is the brain that controls the mind

but the mind that creates the concept of the brain.

Anxious circles rotate in your mind,

mind, mind you, not brain,

because your brain is what creates that formula

for your mind to think.

Fuck your brain,

fuck your mind,

fuck it for ever wondering why

or who

or when

or how

or what.

Endless wheel of spinning madness;

ancient spindle of wound up anxiety;

receding hairlines and dried, cracked lips;

if this isn’t madness, I don’t know what is.