lingering

the thoughts i thought were banished

have come back to not only haunt, but linger.

tears of joy escape my eyes,

moments later turn into sadness.

these thoughts i thought were buried deep,

seem to have been kissed by sunlight.

bright as the sunrise, these thoughts now are.

and even if

i bury them once more

they always seem to resurface.

the things i think may cure these thoughts,

distract me, if you will-

always seem to fizzle out

and i realize i cannot rid myself of them

face your fear

face your thoughts

‘get over it’

for it is only a phase

-they say

if only they knew

the battle that goes on in my head

that is merely coated with zoloft.

numbing the pain-

but they still linger.