Abyss

I try to gaze away

it pulls my eyes back.

Each and every day

all I see is black.

I use my indomitable will

and shift my eyes around.

Until the merest glimpse

of a new view is found.

It slides back into focus

once again ahead,

the view is gone from sight

filling me with dread.

That momentary vision

of something else new

fills my heart with joy

no more am i blue.

This infernal game I play,

the house always wins,

the highs the lows the tears and pain,

the courage of the brave and the sinner’s sins.

All my friends are dead.

They talk through their art.

They tell me how they felt,

when we were centuries apart.

They were there before me.

I wont be the last.

To see the void cloud my vision,

to feel helpless, alone, aghast.

the gods are uncaring,

the sages full of lies.

Scholars bitter and cynical,

the flag of hatred flies.

Somewhere, someone will feel the same

and say or paint or write.

The abyss will momentarily fade,

a new view will come in sight.