I feel miserable

I feel like crap

I hurt you

The word sorry is a lump in my throat right now

I want to say it

but hadn't I promised you I would never say it again?

I wonder why I'm this way

I haven't been able to cry for months

But today in one instant my numb state has broken

I'm crying

I'm fucking crying

And it hurts so much

But I don't have the courage to face you

You, the one person who could hurt me

Hates me

Broken promises and destroyed friendships

That's all I cause

Goodbye to love

Goodbye to sense

Goodbye to life

Dammit why can't I write? I guess that was your forte anyways.