Saturn

I look down at him and I find myself brushing away a strand of hair. His hair always went into his eyes. I try to imagine what shade of blue his eyes would be. What I fear most now is the moment when I cannot remember that blue. I feel a tear slip down from my cheek as I remember the day we met. I try not to cry because I know that I must speak soon.

Too soon it is my turn and I walk to the small pedestal. I face all of our family and friends and another small tear begins to form in my eye. I don't allow it to fall though, he deserves more at this moment.

"I think you all know the story of how I met him. We were both standing at the platform, waiting for the train to come. I had just gotten off from work and I was tired, but I looked over and I saw him. He looked at me for a second before walking over. I was cold and wet and we were all alone on the platform. I didn't know what he was going to do until he handed me an umbrella. I still remember that ridiculous blue umbrella with the yellow suns on it. He always thought that the world was such a crazy, scary place that we all deserved a bit of happiness. He called it his 'microsmile moments'.

"I remember walking back to that platform the next day, even though I did not have to go to work. I waited for him to come so I could give him his umbrella back. I waited for what seemed like forever and then it actually started to rain again. I kept waiting there though until I finally saw him come off of the train. I walked up to him and I was about to hand him back his umbrella until he asked what I would use. He then refused to take it back, instead we walked over to a restaurant and we talked until the rain ended. From then on we talked to each other everyday as we waited for that train to come, it was late every time. Then one time he asked me to dinner and I said yes.

"I had him in my life for sixty amazing years. We had four children and ten grandchildren together. In four months, I will meet our first great grandchild. We had always lived together and I wish we had had more time together, to grow even older together. He was my soulmate and I was so lucky to have been able to watch him become a father and a grandfather." I say as the tear slips down my face. I look back at the man I know and have always loved. I walk back to my seat and soon I hear "Saturn" by Sleeping At Last playing along the room. I begin to cry, this was one of the songs we danced to on our wedding and our first date. This was the song I listened to on the platform all those years ago.