to the boy who loved me

I remember the day you asked me out

When I thought we'd be friends forever.

I really wanted to say yes, for you,

But I couldn't lie to you. Never.

Your sarcastic humor

Made me smile in the dark

But I guess I've never felt

That special spark,

Because in this moment

When I'm pressing send

I feel my whole world

Is caving in.

I'm letting you go

When I know in my heart

That when I reject you

Our worlds will part.

Cause when I look at you

And when you look at me again

It won't be the same

And you won't see me as a friend.

And I know now I'm angry

Because I feel so blind-sided

But you expressed your feelings

And for that, I'm excited.

You've got so much going for you,

I've noticed you've been in a drought.

But I know you'll have a love eventually

Better than I could give out.

And thanks for being there

When I've felt most alone.

You made my day from isolated

To welcome in your home.

And I know that ever since the day

I decided to hit 'send'

We've only exchanged glances

And you haven't been my friend,

But I forgive you for your emotions

As I slowly work on mine

You gave me all the courage in the world

And happiness, I hope you'll find.

So if I approach you

This coming fall

I hope it won't be

Awkward at all,

Because I really did love

Having you around.

I supported you,

And you made me feel sound.

And I miss your laugh.

And I miss your smile.

And I miss your words,

I've been needing them for a while.

Because what I've realized

Is in the end

Everyone needs

A true, best friend.