IDK

I honestly don’t know what I want to do with my life. I feel empty. Alone. Confused about who I am and who I want to be. Trapped in a standstill. It’s like I’m knee deep in quicksand, and any wrong move will cause me to sink deeper and deeper until there’s no way out. The only place left to go is down.

It’s become too difficult to do even the simplest of things. I can’t breathe. It hurts to move. To think. To speak. To exist. But I don’t want to die. I want to learn how to live. To enjoy life. To love. Both myself, and others, and the world around me. But I don’t know how.

I often wonder what it would be like to disappear. Not so much from this world, but from myself. I want to go somewhere far away, leaving the pessimistic and the desolate voice behind. I just haven’t quite figured what path to take, or if I should just try to pave my own.