You laugh because you’re sad.

I don't know you much anymore,

but I will always be haunted by the way your eyes screamed ' help me '

but you spoke fluently in jokes.

I often wondered when your bones would collapse from the weight of your heavy heart.

Well, I've never been in love but I've seen what it's done to you.

I can't help but notice your smile is weak but maybe it's just me because everyone else thinks your happy.

I wish I could wrap you up in band aids and remind you that alcohol only heals the outside cuts not the ones inside.

I watched you as you threw yourself into girls who looked at your face but never your heart,

girls who wanted to fix you but you didn't understand that you were still broken.

I wonder if you still make jokes so everyone is laughing too much to notice.

I still think about you.

And I still think about running away.

And I still hear your voice every time I come close.

You warned me that no matter how far I run, I can never lose my demons because you've already tried to drown yours.

And I believe you, I was there.