Small Talk

"I'm fine!"

no.

"Thanks for asking."

i feel guilty for existing.

"Things are going really well."

i should be happy but i'm not.

"I haven't seen you for awhile, I've been really busy."

i dont want you to see me this way.

"Well, busy procrastinating."

i havent been able to do the things expected of me.

"You know the feeling? At least the weather has been nice."

i called a prevention lifeline three times last night.

"Just the other day I saw a great blue heron fly over head."

i hung up before anyone answered.

"And the leaves are growing on the tree's too! Spring is here!"

im afraid if i tell you ill become a burden.

"I mean last night it didn't get dark until at least eight o'clock."

or that ill come off as melodramatic.

"And have you heard the frogs at night? I swear it's like a tiny opera."

i really need help but i dont know how to ask.

"I could do with less mud though."

i dont want to hurt anymore.

"Anyway, how are you?"

im not okay.