Three Things He Could Never Tell Her

The sun was smiling down at us, yet the atmosphere over the church was a thick grey cloud. I am positive that if I gathered all the tear drops beneath this roof that I would be able to fill a fish tank,for sharks. Friends, friends of friends and family members, even the ones I assumed were my great ancestors gathered here for him.

Of all the faces in this rooms, mines stood out like a sore thumb, because in a room filled with sorrow I was the only one smiling. "He's so strong," they whispered, " he is smiling to hide the pain," they assumed. Yeah, the pain of all this jubilation that lied in the pit of my stomach. He's dead, out of the way. The priest nodded at me, cuing me tht it was my turn to give a 'heartfelt speech.' I had no choice but to evoke feelings that were never there in the first place.

"My beloved twin brother...I'll miss you," not. I still had to see him when I go to hell for my crime.However, it was worth it. As I made my way down the alter, the sympathetic priest gave me a pat on my shoulder "sorry for your loss.." I'm not . Suddenly, my ears twitched from the loud sounds of sobbing, it came from behind the beige wooden door.

I gave the priest a small nod before nimbling towards the weeping sounds,like dummy under a spell. When I saw the person who was crying,my body tense and my heart rate sped. It became almost impossible to speak,but I calmed myself down and invited myself to sit near her. Abruptly, she wrapped her arms around my snf nudged her head against the nape of my neck.

My heart panged, I wanted this, so why is rage interrupting my happiness ? Then she said it "I couldn't stay and look at his face...it looked..so deflated.." the jackhammer. "..So disoriented,like he was melting..." the acid. "That couln't be my Dave!" Oh, that is why I was furious. He was still her Dave, just like she was still his Crystal.

I stood up,causing her arms to untangle from around me before I stomped towards the car. If all this was for nothing, then she could never find out. She could never find out that I loved her way more than him. She could never find out that I was the one she told "I love you" to that night. Most of all, she can never find out that I killed my own twin brother for her.