Ice Fall
Sitting in the cold car,
listening to ice fall
from the trees.
Snow coats the grass.
I can feel winter
circling around my feet.
My knees.
Snow and ice battle leaves
for property.
I feel pressure in my chest,
a magic force,
forcing out between
my breasts,
an open and uncaged love.
Like the parakeets that sing
as if they live in Australia,
not in metal
next to the window and the rain.
I could flip myself inside out,
but I would be too raw to stand.
So, I hold my shit together,
breathe,
count,
sing,
rub my hands,
and focus the energy elsewhere,
to something less self serving.
I feel too old to be destructive,
but I’m about as nuanced
as candy corn.
If I leave this car,
I will melt into yellow, orange
slush on the pavement
and attract bugs.
Who says my tits
need to point to the ceiling?
Not the sleet,
the leaves,
or me.