As love hurts...
What were you expecting?
A warm bed?
A house, that
Didn’t burn?
Or....
was it
Me?
Laughable.
Did you forget?
(I haven’t.)
Did you really think
Sad lyrics
And mournful
Music
Could
Drag
Me
Back?
No.
It is not that easy.
(It’s the only way I knew.
I’m sorry
If I hurt you.)
You can’t paint
“Sorry,”
In pretty colours
And expect me,
To be
Rushing back.
Did you know...
I still have
Nightmares?
(No...)
Tell me
If I paint white
Over them,
Would that
Make
My
Pain
Any
Easier?
No.
It won’t.
(I know.
I know.
So much,
It hurts.)
White lies,
Won’t work.
(...I know.)
The constant
“It’s okay,”
You said
As you
Dismissed
My pain
As
‘Not real’
Because
You were in denial.
Because
You were swimming
In self pity.
Doesn’t mean
That
I wasn’t hurting
I wasn’t dying....
(I’m still under water
This time, as I
Swallow the words
I stabbed you
With.
I’m sorry,
My heart screams.)
Saying people
Having worst of
Then me,
Doesn’t make
A reason for
Me not to
Be sad.
It’s like
Saying
Just because
People are
Better off than me,
I can’t be happy.
But of course
I listened to
You.
(I try hard
To not listen to
Me... either.)
Can you imagine
What shackles
You bound me in?
And still
I have marks
Around my wrists
And ankles?
(God.. anything but,
That.)
They won’t
Ever,
Disappear.
Fade..?
Yes.
Re-written..?
No.
I am that
Weak-hearted.
(Fade..? Yes.
Re-written..? No.
Because I’m that guilt
Wrecked.)
I am that
Weak-hearted.
That I won’t
Wish pain.
Because I know
It’s a hell
That you can’t
Survive.
(That why..
I loved you.
I know.)
Instead,
I will leave
You alone.
Watch.
Watch.
How your
Love
Did this
To me.
As love
Pains...
Just because you,
‘Know’
Doesn’t mean it
Hurts any less.
(...I know)
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Love that stood tall, is now reduced to shattered glass. Both who were once in love, however now... They feed off an illusion. A dream.
As love pains... because it meant so much.