I and U

You and me,

me and you.

There never was one without the other.

You were the sun to my dark world,

the nightlight below my window,

but all along you were just like the moon, only

reflecting others light.

All along,

I thought I was the only one,

the one planet to your one sun.

But you were the moon, surrounded by stars,

and all the planets orbited around you.

You couldn’t resist their gravity,

even though it was supposed to be you and me,

Now my world is dark,

but at least so is yours.

You said you’d never leave me,

now I’m beginning to see

You’ll stay as long as you want

till I crack and let you in

and then you’ll be gone again.

Why do I keep falling for you and your facade of sunlight?

I wish and I try to forget with all of my might.

But every time I close my eyes,

I feel you from all sides.

Appearances can be decieving,

you should know that most of all,

so when you see my smile,

remember that it’s only on the outside.

And on the inside I want to strangle you,

stab you over and over,

shoot you

beat you

hurt you.

But most of all,

I want to love you,

and have you love me back.

What is it I have to do

to prove my worth to you?

There has to be more to love

than a cat and a mouse,

maybe a kid and a nice house?

But if there I sure as hell

haven’t found it yet.

The next time you see me why don’t you

apoligize?

Is that such a hard thing to do?

It sure as hell would be a surprise

for me, but

not all surprises are bad.

So, old friend, I hope you know,

I’m giving up, I’m letting go.

You are no longer the sun I loved,

you’re just another planet,

giving in to the sun of greed.