I’m losing myself

I don’t want another day to pass, I just wanna be stuck here today forever , I’m scared to face the challange that’s waiting for me in these upcoming days ... the challange of finally letting go of who I wanna be , no more like finally aknowledging that what ever I’ve been dreaming of can never be true ...

Some days I wish I’ve knowen sooner maybe I would’ve fought for it and on others I wish if I’de never found out... to be in an endless confusion is way better then burying your goals and ignoring them ..

“Don’t be trapped in someone else’s dream” - V ...I’m afraid that’s exactly what I’m about to do,I’m gonna walk in someone’s else path soon ... 

So as usual tonight I’m sleeping after another fantasy while counting the remaining days...

If growing up means letting go of who you are I would’ve never desired it in the first place...