Everyone

Everyone is drifting away

The words you type

The way your voice sounds

How you light up with laughter

It’s fading

It’s lonely this way

Seeing you in the hallways

Never anywhere else

Hearing you hung out with her yesterday

Wondering why she’s better

Except it’s not hard to discern why

She has the right words in all the right places

Why would you bother with someone who’s too afraid to speak?

It’s better this way

Watching all of you fade away

The memories are enough

The times you could forget imperfection

Wishing you still could

But I need to get it through my head that I’m not good enough.

I need to understand that ignorance is bliss and even though the days where I forgot my shortcomings were the best of my life, they’re not reality.

The reality is that I’m draining to be around.

I’m not funny or smart. Not creative or unique.

I’m not noteworthy at all.

I sure wish I was.

I wish that I was artistic like you

Or funny like you

Or a genius like you

I wish I was as attractive as you

I wish I could be good

Good enough for anyone

I only need one person

Not alone, per se

Just lonely

Lonely as the realization hits you

That you’re better than me

I’m powerless to stop it

I guess I’ll be alright

That’s what everyone tells me, after all

Right before they leave

As you leave