Daddy
I always wondered why my daddy left
Was I not good enough?
Why did he choose drugs over his own daughter?
The absense of my father's presence
Has psychologically fucked me up well into adulthood
I always wondered why he didn't love me
Did I ever cross his mind?
I grew up loathing myself
Thinking there was something wrong with me
Since my dad so easily walked away.
I grew up hating men
Seeing my father in their eyes
I broke so many hearts in vain.
I became the type of girl who refused to get her heart broken,
so I became the destroyer of love.
My daddy broke my heart before I was even born.
Because of him, I have always been afraid of falling in love,
Yet I gave myself to boys who never deserved to see me
So naked and vulnerable.
I never cared what happened to me
Nothing could compare to the pain that dawned on me
All I wanted was my daddy.