phantasms.

happiness has always been a hard concept for me to understand...

a foregin feeling that i strived for but never obtained.

i grappled with it for years, tricking my mind into conjuring the illusion of success.

friendships, boys, and family; all fleeting moments of glee

disappearing with the snap of a finger and never truly restoring.

turns out, happiness can only be achieved in increments.

fleeting, split-seconds of giggles and grins and warmth...

vanishing ghosts, haunting moments of dark voids with colorful daydreams,

fabricating echos of ambitions and twinkling furtures.

ah yes, happiness...what an alluring fantasy it is.