Dear Alex,

Sometimes you get to choose to be great and sometimes greatness is forced upon you. I fall into neither of these categories. I’m not that great. What happened to me was not my fault. But that was a while ago. I think I was born this way. Or I was cursed. But that is ancient history, and you pretty much already knew that.

I have a confession for you. This obsession I have, I can’t stop. I’ve tried. But the longer I go without acting on my obsession, the more my thoughts lean towards it. I walk down the street and I see a guy with a briefcase and I think that it would be fun to electrocute him. Or I see a teenager and think it would be fun to burn him at the stake like the Salem Witch Trials. I can’t stop these thoughts. They happen all the time. It’s driving me insane.

I have a second confession for you. These thoughts scare me. Not the wanting to kill someone part because we both know I’ve killed before, but that I have no control over my thoughts. It feels like these thoughts plague me and hold me captive. I can’t get rid of them. One day I am going to explode and go into a massacre. Just kill whoever crosses my path. That doesn’t scare me either because it kinda sounds fun. What does scare me is that you may get in the crossfire and join the dead. I don’t want that. You don’t deserve that.

You are the first person in many years to show me kindness and not see the monster that I really am. And I appreciate it. I want to stop killing because I know you don’t like it. You don’t like that I enjoy seeing the life drain from a person’s eyes. I wanted to change for you. But I can’t. I’ve been killing way too long to change. This just proves that I don’t deserve to have people in my life or to be happy.

If you haven’t figured this out yet, but this is a goodbye letter. I want to be your friend, but it just isn’t possible. Not without hurting you, and I am not willing to put either one of us in that situation. I’m too dangerous and too much of a monster. Find someone to make you happy. Forget about me. I’m not worth it. Move on. Don’t look for me. I don’t want to be found.

Sincerely,

Belle

Dear Alex,

I hope this letter finds you in good health. I know my letter said that I was saying goodbye, but it seems I can’t even do that right. I’m doing fine in case you are wondering. I found a new purpose in life. Kill people who deserve to die. I know this sounds insane, but hear me out.

I know I can’t suppress my urge and obsession to kill. But what if I use it in a different way. I still get to kill, and I will be helping society. I think my new plan will win your approval. I hope at least. I’ve always valued your opinions.

This all started when I heard about this court case get dismissed. This man had sexually abused his six year old daughter. She was too terrified to testify in court, so it got dismissed. He got off free. Not even a slap on the wrist. He still lives with his daughter. If I didn’t step in, she would probably still be abused.

Don’t worry. I took care of it.

The police found his body. They had to use DNA to identify the body because I mangled it so badly. I also cut off his testicles. He doesn’t need them. I’m not sure what I want to do with them yet. Maybe keep it as a souvenir. I thought about mailing it back to his wife, but figured it might traumatized the daughter more. I didn’t want that. I’ll keep it for now till I figure out what to do with them.

That’s pretty much how I got started on this new plan. Kill people who deserve to die. I hope you don’t hate this idea.

I also hope that you are happy. I still don’t want to be found. It is better this way. It’s better for you. But you can write me. If you want. You don’t have to. I understand.

Sincerely,

Belle

Dear Alex,

I’m glad school is going good for you. You are smart. The hard classes don’t stand a chance against your brain. I’m also glad you decided to write back even if you don’t like what I’m doing. You made that clear. But I also made clear that I can’t stop this. It’s a curse with no way to reverse it.

I’ve killed again. This woman had been out drinking at some bar and decided to drive herself home. She had no right to get behind the wheel of a car. She couldn’t even walk in a straight line. Because of her actions, she ran over a jogger on the sidewalk. He died. She drove away from the scene of the crime.

I found her though. She wasn’t that hard to track down. I shot her and cut out her liver. I left her in her car. Someone will find her at some point. I also decided to leave the testicles from the pedaphile. I got tired of seeing them. I guess this is my signature. Take and organ and leave an organ. Maybe I’ll get caught and that will end the curse.

You should probably report me. It’ll be for the best. I don’t want the cops thinking you were helping me. You aren’t. I’m working alone.

I hope school keeps going good. You sound like you are happy. I hope you find a pretty girl to love and have lots of friends. That’ll mean you have truly moved on. That’ll be good for you.

Sincerely,

Belle

Dear Alex,

I’m not surprised you got an A on the test. You don’t have any reason to stress. You are smart. Much smarter than me. You were always the better one at school between the two of us. School always felt like such a drag to me.

So my latest kill. He was a drug dealer. He liked to hang out at the local high school. Sold drug to rich, spoiled kids. They were easy prey for him. Kids’ brains aren’t developed enough to make good, rational decisions.

But look who is talking. I’m not exactly the prime example of a rational thinker. But I do wonder if the police are looking for me. I hope so because someone should probably stop me. Or not since I getting rid of the scum of the Earth.

I forced him into an overdose. I tied him down and gave him too much of whatever drug he was dealing. I don’t know what it was. Whatever it does did kill him. I also cut out his stomach because why not. I left the drug dealer’s body in the alleyway by his apartment. I did see that he had a wife and a little boy. They are better off without him. Just like you are better off without me around.

If you meet a pretty girl, I better hear about her. If you do decide to write back. I understand if you don’t want her. I also promise I won’t hurt her. You deserve happiness.

Sincerely,

Belle

Dear Alex,

She sounds very lovely. You should ask her out on a date. Maybe to the movies. I hear people like doing that. I don’t personally understand why. You just sit and stare at the screen. No talking to your date. Maybe that’s why people like it.

Just so you know, I’m not telling you everyone I’ve killed. Just my favorites. My new mission is actually really fun. I’m enjoying the hunt for people. There are so many bad people to choose from; it is sometimes hard to choose.

My recent favorite is this guy who decided to rob this gas station that was connected to a car maintenance place. He shot the clerk behind the counter and stole the money. I saw this happened. I hit the robber over the head with a tire iron that I found on the ground. He never saw it coming. I cut off his hand, and I left the gun. I don’t need the gun.

I also just left him at the gas station. I have no reason to move him. I did call for an ambulance for the clerk. Maybe he will survive. I don’t know. It is out of my hands. I gave him a bit of a fighting chance. Maybe you will approve of that.

I know you don’t like what I’m doing. You have made that clear. But I have also made it clear that I can’t stop. I’ve been doing this so long that it has taken control of me, and I have finally let it have control. I don’t expect you to understand. You can tell the cops about me. I won’t be mad. I deserve it.

Please ask that girl out. Make friends. Be happy. Have fun. Enjoy school. Don’t over work yourself. But most importantly, be yourself. You are the best person I have ever met. Don’t let anyone corrupt your light.

Sincerely,

Belle

Dear Alex,

Thank you for stopping me. I knew you were a good person. The best person I have ever met. You deserve to be happy. I was cursed to never be happy. The only time I was ever happy was with you. That can never happen because of my curse and who I am. I'm glad that you were able to stop me. Don't feel guilty about turning me in. It is for the best.

Thank you for everything.

Sincerely,

Belle