A thought on how a human thinks.

A man poor with speach and hard with words has a mind full of thoughts.

This writing is not a story. It is not scientific fact. It is only an extension of my thought process on how a human (myself) thinks and has thoughts. I am not a very good person to speak with due to anxiety with talking to people and a mild speech impediment. I also am not a very good writer as I have always had trouble with the english language and with grammer within writing. So expect problems and good luck understanding me.

"Cogito, ergo sum" or "I think therefore I am". This is a Latin phlosophy spoken by a René Descartes in the early 1600s. This line has always stuck with me throughout my life and always comes up when I wonder about the nature of myself. I know that I am me. I know that my thoughts are my own. I know the words that I plan to say and speak and write are the extension of my thoughts, and in a way, my soul. But how do I know this? How do I discern between the thoughts of my mind and the actions of my tongue. There have been many times where I said something and knew that I did not think about saying that. I have heard many people say, "it just came out" or "it just rolled off my tongue". The action of speaking and writing words without prior thoughts within the soul of our mind is a common action in our daily lives. How many times did you finish a converstation and play it back in your head because you didn't remember what you said. How many times did you look through you texts and see all the automatic responses you sent day after day.

Our minds (or at least mine) has what I like to call, our thinking tank. The place where we actually plan out our responses. The place where you actually have ideas. The place which you preside in. Where you speak to yourself. Where if you tried to scream, your voice will always be the same volume. You just tried that didn't you? In my head my voice also seems to talk in a whisper. Where when I know what I am thinking, but often have a hard time putting these words in a sentence. Maybe it is an action of my personal health, abilities and dissabilites. Maybe it is just my character. Anyway I digress. The understanding of the Think Tank drives me and enchants my very core of understanding. I know it is here. I can test it with many thoughts and experiments. But to truly understand how it functions, and why, and to express my wonder to another. This drive and pushes me to my personal extreme. How do I know these thoughts are my own. How do I know these thoughts are not an automative respone of my bodies physical and chemical wiring? This question hung over my head for a large portion of my teenage years. (Even thought I am only 20 at the time of writing.) To understand how I have come to believe that my thoughts are my own from my soul and not my bodie. We must first examin the sub conscience.

The term sub conscience was first used by Sigmund Freund but he later abandond the use of the word as he said this. "If someone talks of subconsciousness, I cannot tell whether he means the term topographically – to indicate something lying in the mind beneath consciousness – or qualitatively – to indicate another consciousness, a subterranean one, as it were. He is probably not clear about any of it. The only trustworthy antithesis is between conscious and unconscious." This unconscious I belive is a part of everyones mind that takes place in several ways. One way is that of the way our mind precives all our senses and gives our perspective only what is believes we should notice. Take for instance this example. You are sitting in a crowded cafeteria. Every group is talking and there are countless coversations going on. And yet you clearly hear your name spoken accross the room. Your unconscious listens for specific words to trigger your attention. It stores all other non-esential information away in short term storage. Now think of this example. You are in the same cafeteria and there is a table close to you with a group of people who you do not like nor enjoy. Your attention has been called to the name of your friend being said at that table. Suddenly you remember parts of the converstation they just said before your attention has been called. I believe this to be a sign that your unconsciouse can store information for a short time and categorize it so if your attention has been called to something from a certain category it can show you what information it has stored. But as time goes on it becomes harder and harder to pull that info out. Especally if you force it. But how come your brain does this without you ever even thinking about that? How come it automaticlly does that and you most likely never noticed unless someone else pointed it out? I believe that this first part of the unconsciouse is a part natually built within the wiring of the brain, mainly focused upon the actions of our senses and the storage of memories. All acting upon pre set rules and regulations.

Another way our unconscious takes place within our mind is the action of auto-pilot. I am going to give an example and take notice if you immedently start controlling your body once you read what I say. How often do you actually control your eyelids manually? Or your breathing? Humans only control a large portion of their own actions either when they have a need to set a rythm or when they think about how they don't think about it. Our minds can control our body. But for a large majority of the time a part of our mind does it by itself without our own distinction and control. There are many more examples of action from a portion of our minds which can be controled if we so desire but for the most part acts within a set rule book by its self without our direct control.This part of our mind appears to me to be natural within our bodies and less within our soul and within our Think Tanks.

Time for a break. I am going to go ahead and release these writings to hopfully hear back from others and their thoughts upon the mind of a sentient human. I will be getting back to this soon with the understanding of sentience and the unconscious which control automatic control of our speech and words. For now enjoy this unedited rough draft of a view into my think tank.