You pass through my dreams (turning each to nightmares)

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Whisper screams. My head hammered, throbbing harder with each breath of life I inhaled, my lungs flaring with the thought of you. Until it was all I could hear. Until it was all I could see. Until it was all I could smell, taste and feel. Your voice. Your hands. Your eyes. Your lips. Your tongue. It tipped me over the edge. My fingertips still shivering, trembling with ache. It was only a playful game, an accident. My shoulder bumped into yours. But then– our bare skin brushed. I felt your naked flesh. Soft and rough. Your tiny skin hairs tickled my collarbone. Your thick muscles crashed into me. And something dark woke in me. Heavy with desperate want. Hunger gnawed my insides. My heartbeat bellowed against my ribs.

Whisper screams. Hush thunder. The veins in my head drummed in a harsh rhythm. My ears buzzed. You were everywhere. In the air, in my mind. Dripping in the particles of my sweat that ran down my skin, glistening with silver. Sticky and wet. You left me breathless. Naked. Drained. But, then.

My world whitened as if lit by thousands of scorching suns. A hot wash of white flames burning everything. And in its wake, there were only grains of dust left. My heart crumbled to ashes under your foot. Overlooked, unseen, ignored.

And—

Silent. I drowned in your shadow.